In a State of Disillusionment

The world around us is more construct than real. I'm not saying the real world doesn't exist. But what we see is our perception of the real which is a construct. Once the construct is made, we get comfortable in it and let our guards off. We start to trust people, make expectations of them, love things, hate people... all based on the construct.

But the fact is that the construct is different from the reality. The real is far more complicated than our brains could fully comprehend. The problem arises when the real pops up to contradict our construct - we are simply disillusioned. Everything around us seems false and a gloomy period ensues.

Right now, I'm in such a state. People who I thought were great are actually not that great after all. Friends doesn't seem to be friendly. The chain reaction begins and even the mundane things seem to be specially designed to hurt us.

But optimism prevails and we believe that it will get over. We make new constructs to live on.

To You, Teacher

Your success as a teacher lies on

My attentiveness as a student

Every time I fail to be attentive

You fail as a teacher

Surely the damage is all mine

but you are answerable to your conscience

For you have taken the responsibility

to Teach me..

Anguish

Every morning when I wake up
similar questions question me
Some express it vocally most not
The prejudice gets reinforced
Surely I am not guilty
but those silent glares make me one.
I’m proud of my history
but not the one which I am a part of
Emotions flow like an angry tide
for distorting my history to make a new one
I stand against time
and the lone battle goes on
I cannot give up
for I am poisoned with a victor’s blood
and the battle will go on
amidst those glares and prejudices
Till victory is achieved.

P.S. - This was written as a comment to Nidhi's post on her blog. The post can be read on http://blastit.wordpress.com/2008/12/02/lights-bombs-camera-action/#comment-84